I started writing this on Sunday night and just finished it tonight. For having gone from idea to complete first draft in 48 hours isn't bad, but I'm sure there's a lot of bad to be found here. To quote Fight Club: I want you to hit me as hard as you can.
Remember the guy in high school that everyone wanted to be?
He was usually the quarterback of the football team and had more friends than
anyone else. He was dating the hottest girl in school, drove the nicest car,
and got good grades because he convinced the smart kid to do his homework for
him. That guy totally wasn't me.
No, I was the smart kid doing the quarterback's homework. I
was the kid no one wanted to hang out with because I was into weird stuff like
role playing games and comic books. Girls wouldn't give me the time of day and
my family was too poor to afford a second car so I was stuck taking the bus. I
had one best friend and a couple of people whom I considered good buddies but
to everyone else I might as well have been invisible.
Except for the bullies of course. I got picked on
mercilessly, made fun of, and called every name in the book. What doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger, though, right? If I just put my time in, studied
like mad, and ignored all the dickheads, I would get accepted to a prestigious
college, earn my degree, and land an awesome job. Then I could go to the local
burger joint and make the quarterback ask me if I wanted fries with that.
As it turns out, I did survive high school. I was accepted
into a private university, had my degree after four years, and got hired at a
pretty decent job right out of school. The only problem was that nothing else
had changed. The few friends I had moved away and I spent my free time playing
computer games online and watching anime. Women still wanted nothing to do with
me and I drove a mid-sized sedan because I couldn't afford the maintenance on
anything better. At work, I would pick up the slack for the office superstar
because he had too much else going on in his life. By my late twenties, I had
fallen into a nice, comfortable rut.
I came home from work on a Friday night and tossed my
briefcase on the couch. My tie was choking me so I pulled it off. After
sloughing off my loafers and draping my jacket on the back of a dining room
chair, I made my way to the fridge. A microbrew sounded wonderful. I sank my
teeth into a slice of cold pepperoni pizza and then booted up my computer. My
guild was going to be running a raid tonight and I wasn't about to miss it. As
soon as I had logged in my cell phone buzzed.
“Getting out of your dungeon tonight, little brother?” the
screen flashed at me. That would be my sister, Audrey.
My thumbs flew over the virtual keyboard. “Shut it, sis.”
Several seconds later my phone buzzed again. “You're never
going to get laid with that attitude.”
“I'd rather not discuss my sex life with my sister.”
“LOL. What sex life? :p”
I chucked my phone down on my desk in disgust. What did she
know? Hell, I'd had sex before. Although…shit. When was the last time I'd actually
had sex with a woman? I thought about it and realized the first and last time
was at a party in college my roommate had dragged me to. Most of the night was
hazy and I’m pretty sure I was suffering from a minor case of whiskey dick, but
I had still managed to get lucky.
It didn’t matter, there was a raid on. A couple of mouse
clicks and my dwarven berserker began slaughtering orcs with extreme prejudice.
“Ding!” I typed as I gained a level.
My guildmates responded in a chorus of “Grats!”
Nearly two hours later we'd ganked the boss orc and divvied
up his loot. I rolled on a pair of enchanted boots and completed my armor set.
After one last round of congratulations I logged off and shut down my computer.
My phone was still where I had left it, the black screen mocking me.
Never getting laid, huh?
I slipped my loafers back on and grabbed my jacket as I
headed out the door. There was a bar nearby that some of my coworkers had
talked about. What's the worst that could happen?
As soon as I walked in my senses were assaulted. Bass
thudded into my chest, the acrid stench of sweat mixed with flowery bodyspray
filled my nose, and the warmth from accumulated body heat was enough for beads
of sweat to spring from my forehead. I could barely see but managed to make my
way to the bar without stumbling into anyone. The bartender was flirting with a
twenty-something blonde. I eventually caught his attention and he came over.
“What can I get you?” he shouted over the house music as he
laid a drink napkin down in front of me. He had an eyebrow piercing and was
wearing a T-shirt with skulls and roses on it.
I leaned forward so I didn’t have to yell as loudly.
“Whatever amber ale you have on tap is fine.”
“No problem.” He filled a pint glass and set it down on the
napkin before taking my money and going back to chat up the blonde.
Beer in hand, I surveyed the room. The dance floor took up
most of the space but there were several standing tables off to the right. Most
of the tables had groups of women at them but I knew better than to try and
pull a mob when it had backup. Eventually I found a bored looking brunette all
by herself so I walked over as coolly and casually as I could muster.
“Hi, I’m Kyle. Can I buy you another?” I gestured to her
half-empty drink.
She looked me up and down. “Sure. Rum and diet cola.”
I smiled and nodded. “I’ll be right back.”
The pounding techno beats were starting to make me sick to
my stomach but I couldn’t wimp out now. I yelled at the bartender again before
returning with the lady’s drink. She had been joined by a broad-shouldered guy
in a leather bomber jacket.
“Am I interrupting?” My smile was unassuming as I set the
glass down.
The new guy turned towards me. He was at least half a head
taller and probably fifty pounds heavier than I was. “I was just about to ask
the lady to dance, so yeah, you are.”
The brunette shrugged as if to say, “Sorry,” so I just
nodded and walked away.
What the hell was I
thinking? This was a stupid idea.
Stupid Audrey. I couldn’t believe I took her bait. After
leaving my unfinished beer at the bar, I headed outside. What had made me think
I could just go to a bar and pick up a girl for a one night stand? That guy
wasn’t me. That guy wasn’t me at all.
I tossed my jacket in the passenger seat of my car and
started it up. I was pulling out of the parking lot when I felt a heavy thud
and my head bounced off the steering wheel.
“Son of a bitch!” I whipped around and saw the muscle car
that had just hit me. After throwing my car into park and putting the flashers
on I stepped out to survey the damage.
The other driver was furious. “What the fuck do you think
you’re doing, asshole?” He was literally foaming at the mouth and a cloud of
booze-breath hit me square in the face.
“I was just trying to leave, man. I think you backed into
me.” The damage wasn’t too bad. He’d smashed his taillight on my bumper, which
was dented in, and we had swapped some paint. It was nothing that insurance
wouldn’t pay for.
“Are you saying this was my fault?” His voice was like nails
on a chalkboard as he flailed his arms at me.
“No, I didn’t say that. We can let the insurance companies
sort all that out.” I reached for my wallet so I could dig out my insurance
card. “If I can just get your information-“
I felt the shot before I heard it. Pain exploded in my left
bicep and radiated throughout the rest of my body like a shockwave. Bright red
blood blossomed on my white dress shirt.
“You...you shot...” I stammered. My mind felt cloudy. Iron
bands were wrapped around my chest making it almost impossible to breathe.
Blackness started to creep into the edges of my vision.
Something inside me snapped. Deep scarlet flooded my sight
and I roared like a wounded bear. I launched myself over the cars at my
attacker, raining fists down on him as hard and fast as I could.
The next thing I remember was waking up in a small room with
concrete walls. Wire springs dug into my back through a thin mattress, my
knuckles felt like they had been replaced with gravel, and my left arm screamed
every time my heart beat. I groaned and the cot above me creaked with the
weight of its occupant.
“Wakey wakey.” A bald, chocolate head popped over the edge
of the top bunk and grinned at me. “We got a badass over here.”
“Who are you? Where am I? What the hell happened?”
“Oh, that's rich. Little man doesn't remember beating
somebody to death.”
That got my attention. “What? No, I didn’t. Did I?”
His laugh was like rolling thunder. “Such an innocent
flower. You crushed some dumb bastard’s skull!”
I tried to think back, to remember doing anything of the
sort. But it was gone, blank, almost like there was a hole cut out of my
memory. “I…I don't remember that.”
Was I even capable of actually killing someone? I'd been
plenty angry before and I'd be lying if I said I hadn't at least thought about
killing certain people at one time or another. Whether or not I could go
through with it was something else entirely. It was then that I noticed my
orange jumpsuit. “Am I in jail?”
“Damn straight. The man don't take kindly to murderers,
son.”
As I tried to make sense of that revelation there was a
commotion outside the bars of my cell. The rest of the prisoners were getting
restless. Something was going on.
I swung my legs over the side of the cot and got up. My arm
was strapped to my chest in a sling but it hurt just thinking about it.
“Recreation time, ladies! Get up and get moving!” The guards
were walking down the corridor. A loud buzzing sound preceded the cell doors
sliding open.
My cellmate leapt down from his bunk. He was twice my size
and almost knocked me to the ground when he clapped me on the back. “Come on,
little man. Yard time!”
Dumbstruck, I followed him out to the yard. As the afternoon
sun kissed my forehead, every prison movie and television show I'd ever seen
ran through my mind. I really didn’t want to have to join the skinheads for
protection. Maybe my cellmate could help me out and I could be the token white
guy? The vatos locos were an option too; I grew up in SoCal so hablé pequeño
español. As long as I didn't have to hold on to anyone's pocket or be anybody’s
bitch I'd be alright.
With one good arm, I couldn’t lift weights and doing any
sort of strenuous activity sounded incredibly painful. Walking around the yard
probably wouldn’t hurt too badly, though. It would give me a good opportunity
to look around, get my bearings, and try to figure out whom to ally myself
with.
I had just started wandering when a beachball of a man with
a swastika tattooed on his forehead blocked my path.
“Where you going, boy?”
“Oh, just out for a stroll.” I gave him a half-smile.
He stepped up and bumped me with his gut. “We own this yard.
If you wanna use it you gotta pay the toll.”
“That seems fair. What’s the price?” I took a step back but
ran up against another skinhead. I looked to the sides and saw more skinheads
starting to surround me.
“Just your ass. And maybe that pretty mouth. Gotta do
something about all those teeth, though, first.”
My right arm was suddenly wrenched behind my back and my
sling was torn off. As they yanked my left arm back the agony nearly made me
vomit. The fat neo-nazi grabbed my cheeks in his stubby fingers and squeezed.
“Pucker up, sweetheart!”
I screwed my eyes shut. This shouldn’t be happening. This
couldn’t be happening. I’d wake up in bed drenched in sweat and swear I’d never
watch late night cable TV and eat polish sausage again.
But I wasn’t dreaming. This was a nightmare I wouldn’t be
able to wake from. This memory wouldn’t fade with the light of day. They
unzipped my jumpsuit and yanked it down. Sunlight shined where it normally
doesn’t.
My eyes popped open. I’d be damned if I was going to be an
easy target. I was tired of being the whipping boy. Everyone always thought
they could do or say whatever they wanted to me and I would just have to take
it. Well I wasn’t going to take it anymore.
Crimson leaked into the edges of vision. My skin, already
warmed by the sun, started to get hotter. My heart pounded, pumping faster and
faster, deafening me with the sound of rushing blood. The pain in my arm
vanished and I felt like I could bend steel. I burst free from the full nelson
and slapped my hands on either side of the racist’s chubby face. As I saw red,
his eyes darted back and forth as if looking for help. His skin turned the color
of a nasty sunburn at my touch. He screamed like a hog being butchered as thin
tendrils of acrid, black smoke curled around my fingers.
My hands burst into flame and I watched with sick pleasure
as my would-be rapist’s flesh bubbled and started to cook. The underlying fat
melted first causing his skin to sag and droop. White-hot flame licked his
eyeballs as they sizzled and popped like bacon on a griddle. I pushed him down
to the ground and watched the fire dance on his corpse for a few seconds, his mouth
stuck open in an eternal wail.
The skinheads had begun backing away, their faces frozen in
sheer terror. They weren’t getting off that easy. My fingernails dug into my
palms as I balled my hands into tight fists. Fury washed over me and the flame
covering my hands spread quickly up my arms and engulfed my entire body.
Wreathed in crackling fire, I lifted my arms to the sky and bellowed. My primal
scream was matched by a roaring wall of flame that spread outwards from my
body. The searing heat blasted into the skinheads and flayed the flesh from
their bones, leaving nothing more than charred and scattered viscera.
I stood in the center of the pile of smoking human wreckage,
shaking from the adrenaline. As my rage subsided so did the fire. I watched in wonderment
as the flames retreated from my body and finally winked out at my hands,
leaving my fingernails trailing smoke.
The yard was quiet and still as a graveyard. Even the guards
were stationary, seemingly wary of getting too close to me. After an eternity,
my cellmate stepped out of the crowd and came over to me.
“Feel better?”
I couldn’t keep the corners of my mouth from turning up.
“Much. But the rest of these pieces of shit had better not piss me off again.”
“I don’t think that’ll be a problem. You’re the boss now.”
He grinned and laughed his thunderous chuckle again.
I’m the boss now.
Yeah, that guy was definitely me.
