SPOTTED
A
story of unconventional airport security.
Time
was, Clem mused, when a man’s thoughts were his own. They were private; nobody
else’s business. These days that wasn’t true anymore, at least not if you
wanted to travel somewhere. While he was busy thinking about this and sipping
his coffee, Laura was leaning with her forehead against the wall, eyes screwed
shut and cascading red hair moving from side to side as if swaying in a breeze.
One of her hands was balled into a tight fist and the other was pressed to the
textured concrete next to her face. It looked as if she were crying. When she
turned around, she was.
“There’s
nothing,” she had said.
A
little over an hour later, while Laura was sleeping through her terrible
headache, GlobalAir Flight 205 broadcast a static-filled,
panicked message before exploding midair. Clem saw the news on television and
clenched his jaw, tears springing to his briefly widened
eyes. He couldn’t believe it had happened!. He
was relatively certain Laura would lose her license as a spotter. As a bleeding heart who worried constantly about events just
such as this, Laura was one-hundred
percent going to lose her shit. , because she was as a bleeding heart
and who worried constantly about events just such as this. It was a wonder
she wasn’t an alcoholic yet., but After this, Clem could bet she was going to be a good
deal closer to it than she’d been an hour ago. He sagged, glum, into a chair in
the smoking lounge, took a drag off his cigarette.
Courage.
Back
in the security offices, Laura’s cubicle was empty and spotters had
gathered around the coffee maker in the break room, to clucking among themselves. Clem begged off
interaction and sat at his desk, staring over the short wall into Laura’s now empty cube.
The chatter faded and Clem heard a sniffle behind him. He turned to see Senior Spotter (or some such fancy pants rank that will make
people hush up because that’s what you do when big boss types come around)
Dana emerging from the back hallway that led downstairs where scores of
investigators had set up shop. Her face
was red and mottled, (insert eye color here) eyes
swollen from sobbing. She had been on the team
was one of the senior spotters who that had
checked him and Laura for intoxication and fatigue before putting them on the
point. Their eyes met and she stared at Clem helplessly,
her guilt obvious to even him. He
lifted his hands in a silent gesture, face full of puzzlement. As she walked past him on the way to her
office, Clem couldn’t take her sorrowful gaze, and slid his focus to his
upturned palms. Her partner, Steven,
was nowhere to be found. Steven doesn’t really matter. And ending on a thing with
Clem’s hands will bring it more into focus. Ha, focus.
When
Dana had fled the Spotlight offices at last, the talking picked up again.
“She’s
been really stressed out lately—Laura, I mean.” Debbie said, then glanced
around before lowering both her head and voice dramatically “I guess she’s been
having some problems, you know, at home.” She nodded sagely, fingering the fat
fold of her purple turtleneck collar and turning away with her coffee cup.
The gossiping clutch grew noticeably uncomfortable when Fred, Clem
and Laura’s Handler, walked through, his tie unclipped and flapping around. All
breathing seemed to stop when he touched Clem’s elbow and asked him to step
into the conferment room. Clem’s stomach
lurched in protest. Fred passed through the gossiping
clutch with his tie unclipped and flapping around as he walked. Another silence
fell over the group when he touched Clem’s elbow and asked him to step into the
conference room. Clem’s stomach lurched.
As
they walked out the door, Clem shot a glance back over his shoulder, looking
into the eyes of his workmates. He couldn’t tell what any of them was
thinking. Laura would have called it stress.
He didn’t want to think about Laura right now. He made a fist and
counted his knuckles silently.
“Clem,
we wonder if you might know something about what happened today with Laura. You
were on the point with her.” Fred’s face was intense and his jocular manner had
become abrupt. Clem was scared. He felt
miserable and he thought he might be sick. He examined his fingers and wondered
if Fred believed he had anything to do with Laura’s failure to spot the
terrorist who blew up Flight 205. He struggled to maintain his composure,
glancing up and trying not to look like he was obviously attempting to read
Fred’s thoughts. As a Handler, Fred was nothing more
than a human lie detector. Fred wasn’t a spotter; typical of
handlers, he was a human lie detector.
“I…like
Laura.” Clem’s green eyes, framed by his straight, dark brown hair, glistened
as he lifted them to Fred’s watery blue ones. “I don’t want to get her into any
kind of trouble.” He was worried for Laura but he didn’t want to get caught up
with her either. He had a life of his own.
Fred
nodded three times, scratched the side of his neck, and huffed. “There’s no way this should have happened. Here,
of all places, with Laura, of all people.
The two of you were on the point and someone didn’t get spotted. Now
three hundred people are dead and we’re not getting anything from Laura except
a lot of hysterics and apologies.”
Clem’s
eyes dropped. He couldn’t keep up his gaze any longer. It would probably make
him look guilty, but it was easier to stare at his hands and let Fred talk.
“This
is a huge failure for us, courtesy of yourself and Laura,” continued Fred. “It’s an absolute blight on the face of
Spotlight. You’ve never missed a spot, Laura’s never missed a spot. We don’t miss spots here. You know who
misses spots? Lazy spotters, tired spotters, distracted spotters. Not spotters
handled by Fred Marguey.“ His eyes narrowed for a moment and he shuddered,
gritting his teeth.
“Something
happened in that line today and one of you is going to tell us what it was.
Steven and Dana cleared both of you and now they’re under the gun too. I need
to find out who went wrong and where. If we don’t get some answers, doubt is
going to spread through this entire program.
Help me stop that from happening, Clem. Did you notice anything unusual
this morning about Laura? Anything at
all? I don’t like having to do this and I know you don’t, either. Talk to me, Clem.”
Clem’s
face turned away from Fred’s, just a bit. Just enough to
let that Fred knew know there
was
something. Staring at the floor, he remained mute.
“Clem!”
Running
his fingers through his hair, he debated with himself before relenting, setting
his hand on the table with an unintentionally loud slap. “Fine, okay. I just
didn’t think anything of it really, until afterward.” Fred watched him,
noted his obvious distress. Laura was Clem’s senior and it was clear he wanted
to protect her.
“Go
on,” Fred prompted.
“I
told her that I spotted something while I was walking the line, but I couldn’t
be sure where it was coming from. When I came around the wall, she was trying so
hard to home in on it but she just couldn’t spot anything. I…I mean in the past
the same thing has happened and everyone says that sometimes it takes a few
years for a spotter to be able to really feel out a false alarm. Fred…” Clem
looked directly at him again, eyes full of confusion and fear. Fred pitied
him. “I feel like it’s all my fault for not calling Steven or Dana [or one of the other whatever her title is…es]…but I
didn’t want to go over her head and she was never wrong before and she tried so
hard to verify my spot, she looked like she was really straining. I could tell
because when she turned around to tell me there was nothing, tears were coming
out of her eyes. She had to go right to sleep after that so I walked her into
the baffle because her head hurt so badly.” Everything rushed out so fast that
Fred had a hard time keeping up, but he could see Clem relax a little as he
finished speaking.
“Don’t
you find that a little strange?”
“What?”
Fred
grunted. He hated this whole thing, hated the eye of suspicion being cast on
members of his staff. “Laura’s record has been exemplary. This one time, the
time she ‘strains’ herself to verify a spot- a correct spot- she tells you
there’s nothing, and then there’s a terrorist attack. There’s something seriously wrong with this
scenario, Clem. Someone wasn’t doing their
job.”
Clem
couldn’t think of a reply, but it was obvious Fred was torn up about the whole
situation. Everyone liked Laura, and
Fred had been her handler her entire twelve years at Spotlight. Clem didn’t
envy him a bit. Fred fell silent for a few minutes. Clem fidgeted, thinking of the cold hard chairs Steven in the basement and
being questioned by authorities, surrounded by spotters and handlers. His next step. His next test. Fred dismissed him and, with
heavy, halting steps, Clem trod back to his desk to wait. He knew
he’d be next.
For
the next few days Clem stayed home from work, avoided phone calls, and fielded
visits from various authorities. He grew tired of explaining, over and over,
the events surrounding Laura’s failure to confirm his spot and her subsequent
behavior. He holed up inside his apartment with the blinds closed and the
television off, not checking the news, not reading the paper, not even checking
his email. He envisioned his coworkers hovered
near his cubicle and speculated as to whether he would be coming back. They would, as usual
with anything terrible happening, compare it to the TransFlight wreck and
someone would rhetorically ask if anyone remembered that.
Of course everyone remembered that. “This
is just like that horrible TransFlight wreck, remember that?”Debbie was wearing
a slate blue turtleneck this time and she nodded in agreement, shivering at the
memory. Everyone remembered that. It was due to, as
Fred would say, an intoxicated spotter back in the days when spotters worked
alone with a single handler. Back when spotters were new and there seemed to be
a new iteration of Spotlight every other month. Then, they were just called
airport psychics.
It
had started when a security guard named Earl Waits got “the shivers” from a
passenger and remarked on it to a fellow guard. He’d said there was something
about this guy, as if there were a spotlight shining on him out of all the
people in the crowd. After takeoff, the passenger mounted a frenzied attack with
a hidden weapon. He managed to kill two passengers before he was overcome and
killed by an air marshal, who also died. Waits went on to point out other
passengers he “spotted” and he was always right. Nobody knew how, but he had a
long and successful career in airport security before he went on to create
Spotlight, a training program for the similarly gifted. Eventually the
laughable “Airport Psychic” became “Spotter” and nearly every airport in the
country had one.
Clem wasn’t sure he wanted to be a part of this any longer. His and Laura’s suspensions were about to
come to an end, but a strong part of him did not want to go back. He felt bad
for the position he had put Laura in, like he had sold her out. She was
undoubtedly getting it worse than he was as she was his superior. He wasn’t sure he could look her in the eye
again and not have to immediately look down at his hands. He wasn’t even sure he could do his job
without constantly relying on that obvious focus to comfort him.
His
decision was made for him when he received a call 2 weeks after the incident,
just when he had 3 off days left and was panicking about going back, facing a
new partner, and not being able to spot anyone. Wearily, he answered the
telephone.
“Hello?”
“You
can turn in your badge now.”
The
familiar (male? female?) voice on the other end
of the line was smug with triumph and Clem could feel all the tension leaching
away with the knowledge that his job was done. Still, there was Clerc…
“You’re
thinking about Clerc.”
Clem
retorted, “You must be psychic,” and then grimaced.
“About
as psychic as you are!” The two broke into rueful laughter, until Clem’s throat
tightened and he stopped so he wouldn’t start to cry for
his loss.
“Leave
tomorrow. Just call in and quit. You’re stressed out, you aren’t dealing with
the whole situation well at all. We’ll get all your stuff moved out. Daisy’s
coming into town, as your sister who is handling things for you. Good job,
Clem.”
“You
can stop calling me that now,” Clem joked, but the call had already ended. With
a wan smile, he went onto the bathroom and plugged in the electric shaver he
had placed on the counter in anticipation. Finally the hair, the beard, the
contact lenses and the carefully practiced nonregional accent he had acquired
could be shed. He wasn’t Clem anymore, and after a shave and a shower he didn’t
look a thing like Clem either. That night, he got the best sleep he’d had in a
while.
Next
morning he not-Clem shouldered a meager
backpack and a clean identity, then departed, leaving all of Clem’s documents
in the apartment along with everything Daisy needed to settle Clem’s business
and zero out his existence. He drove right past the airport where he’d been an
employee just a day before, and on to the next state where he left the his long-term rental car in overnight parking for
pickup. Strolling through the airport, not-Clem he
wondered if any of his comrades were there too. He sipped coffee until his
boarding call came, and when it did he lined up at the gate with everyone else.
He looked at his hands, studied his fingers and didn’t think about the
spotters. He didn’t think about Daisy, didn’t think about Clerc or Laura or
Fred. His mission had been successful.
The proof had been in Clerc’s eyes as he’d walked past Clem, past Laura,
past the security gates on the way to sacrifice himself and the 300 others on
Flight 205. Not-Clem He looked up and glanced around idly. He couldn’t spot
any spotters, but he grinned because they couldn’t spot him.